Counting down to Nov 18... for I will be embarking onto a whole new journey... The journey will not be a smooth sailing easy going one. But I guess it is a challenge to see how far and how hard I can go. Hmph... sounds like I seriously love to torture myself. I will miss this place... the first place where I "sold my soul" to in Malaysia, but on the other hand, I am looking forward to the next place I am going to "sell my soul" too as well - A very redundant Ida
The opportunity came as a recognition of my hard work... and maybe dedication to my job. But the inner voice of me is shouting of uncertainty and fear that I am not good enough at all... worried that I will not be of much help to those that place their trust in me, and at the end of the day, will disappoint those who think highly of me.
I had never been someone that has confidence. But I guess the good thing is people seldom see through the shield i place upon myself. In comparison to those in my family, everyone is so smart, so talented, such high achievers while me... a nobody... :\ Maybe that is why I am always working harder than anyone to prove that I am part of a family of high achievers. But it never seem enough to do them proud...
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